My Goal

Did you remember your goal from last week?

If not,

That's too bad.

I said I would make a blog regarding my experience with my goal, so that's what I'm going to do for you today.

This is a little embarrassing, but the goal I chose was to be more chaste.

I've never had sex.

I've never touched another person inappropriately.

I've never put myself in that situation to commit a sexual sin.

However,

I find myself thinking about it a lot.

And while I'm not actually committing it, thinking about it is just as bad as commuting the action.

That's why I try as much as possible to resist sex RPs or romance RPs.

Not only is it out of character for Ciel, but it just isn't something to exercise.

If I feel it's appropriate to the plot of the story and character, then I don't mind, but they will never be detailed.

Why am I so abstinent?

Well, because I think sex isn't for gratification.

It's something more sacred to me.

It's embracing your love to one another, and because it stimulates such emotion, as a human being, I don't want to give that to just anybody.

It also is there to create children. To bring actual human beings just like you and me to this world.

So I don't think it should be abused in such a way society has today.

Seeing lewd RPs on Twitter is something that saddens me, because such a beautiful thing is being degraded and treated as nothing more than a method to just feel good.

Since I've been more exposed to these things by being on Twitter, I realized that my mind has been in the gutter quite a bit.

I tend to tell a lot of dirty jokes now and speak of it lightly.

That's not the person I've been spending all these years trying to become.

So this week I decided to change that.

I won't lie, I failed my goal a lot.

This week I noticed more and more of these things being thrown at me and it was hard to resist them.

I'm still not going to give up on my goal because I'm not a weak person.

I have my moments but I still work hard to be pure in not only my eyes but in the eyes of my God.

That's my experience.

I'd love to hear yours if you did it?

If not, try it again.

Your Earl of Sweets,

Ciel PhantomHive