Demons

What another attrocious day.

First my writer feels humiliated in their class,

And then the anxiety acts up.

Nothing could be worse.

However, I found myself talking to a follower with similar issues as my own writer. Then we got on the subject of schizophrenic art. How horrible it must be to conjure frightening images onto paper. Not just any images, but images replayed over and over in the mind that cannot be controlled.

Then I started thinking.

Just as I control my demon butler, I can control the demons that haunt me.

My reactions, my daily way of life, and my attitude all make up how my day will go. The contract I have with the demons in my mind is that in exchange for my soul, I  grow resistant to their power.

For example, some people deal with anxiety, schizophrenia, autism, and many other things for the rest of their lives, hence the soul exchange. However, the resistance my writer has grown personally is a lot stronger that it was five years ago.

It begins by embracing your problems. 

If you are playing a violin, you can't hear your mistakes unless you play loud enough. There's always the fear of criticism and humiliation when you play a ridiculously loud, off key note, but doesn't the same thing happen when you have a panic attack in the middle of class?

The more you bottle, the more tension you feel building up inside, but once you say to yourself "okay, I'm having a panic attack, instead of holding onto it, why don't I release a little tension here and there?"

How do you release tension?

You talk with friends, you read, or you follow your passions.

Reading, writing, calculus, art, biology, and many more have the capacity to affect someone depending on where your interests fall.

Don't let the demons and horrible life scenarios run your way of living.

You are the master those demons serve. 

Until next time my pawns~

Your Earl of Sweets,

Ciel Phantomhive