Writer's Note

Sorry I didn't post a blog last night,

I just didn't have anything to write about. 

However, my writer does have a few words.

Unfortunately, they are slowly taking over my mind.

May as well get this over with.

Guys,

A lot of you have felt offended by my behavior lately.

And I want you to know that anything I do is RP. I'm mean, bratty, or any other bad word you can think of is all apart of me being in character.

My goal had always been to be the perfect Ciel Phantomhive, and that will never cease.

But when I'm not in character, you will definitely know it.

And this is who my character is when I'm not Ciel.

I am kind.

I will never say a harsh word to you or look down on you. I've been through a crap ton and watch others go through hard times as well. If I say something that sounds rude, I insist that I don't mean it at all. Everything I say is meant to be a compliment and to raise you up.

I am understanding.

I've taken child development, psychology, seen doctors and have lived through my own conditions. There is no one that understands more or is more accommodating than me.

And I love you.

I've only hated a select few in my life, other than that, I really do love all of you. My heart is full and is compassionate towards all of you. When you think the world is against you and that you are alone and hated, I will always be there next to you, by your side and full of love for you.

I'm also shy, easily intimidated, sensitive, and cautious.

Those things are completely out of my control.

So when I am out of my comfort zone, I will be upfront and say so.

It isn't because I hate you or anything, it's because I just literally can't do what you ask of me.

I especially want to apologize for anyone I may have called out on with previous blog posts. I wanted to keep you as memories and examples, and never thought less of you, but as I look back it wasn't very kind of me.

I'm truly sorry.

It's been rough lately. 

It's not an excuse for my behavior, but, I feel like I get mad easier and frustrated more often.

I feel like it's because of a situation I faced over the summer, but I need to be better and to remember my love for others.

I hope you can forgive me.

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Okay, that was cute.

Anyway, thank you all for attending my ball tonight, it was a success and it was quite enjoyable.

Also, my butler has been sick, so make sure you pay him your regards.

Now, I leave you with this,

Don't ever read, do homework, or anything else in Pegsoon's music class.

She expects you to sit there, do nothing, and listen...

Be good.

Your Earl of Sweets,

Ciel Phantomhive