Behind the Screen

My name is Ciel Phantomhive, if you don't know that much, well, never mind.

My writer is nothing like me. They are constantly happy and just flat out weird. In fact, it's quite entertaining to RP with their personal account. Only few know who they really are, one being a good friend from New Zealand, the other being my butler. I only told them today which felt quite strange.

I should've just told him I'm really Kira.

It didn't feel like the truth, although it was.

Maybe it's because my writer's "personal account" becomes less personal every day. They make a character that's supposed to always be joyful, to never be offended, and to be "funny."

To be honest, it's who they want to be, not really who they are.

If anything, they take more to me. They may be this person to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but the pain inside is something I can relate to.

Losing something you can never get back hurts,

But

Living a life that is an illusion is a slap in the face.
No, their life hasn't had a drastic change, but in their minds, it's a hard adjustment.
I guess by living through my character and seeing things through my eyes is sort of a stress reliever.
For once, they can be someone else, and distort the reality they've become all too familiar with.

So this, Ciel Phantomhive, is much more than a screen name or a character,
It's a new perspective on life.
Is there a hint of hope?
Well that's the one thing my writer has that I don't.
Maybe the voices will go away once they have me to deal with them instead.

With that being said, I have something to tell my butler.

Perhaps I will never know what happened to my parents, but I will know what will happen to my writer.
Once the trauma stops,
My soul is yours.
Other than that,
To a long "friendship."

Your Earl of Sweets,

Ciel Phantomhive